Wednesday, 31 March 2010
Wednesday,
I’m going to start off by saying how much I hate being ill - but it’s okay because I have super noodles, summer fruits drink and Neon Hitch in my ears. Wednesday’s are shit. Hump day? It’s just.. awful.It rained a bit, was proper windy all day and my textiles teacher basically hates me.She doesn’t get what having no confidence does to people.Oh I swear my insecurities will hold me back forever.Or as Eminem says “My insecurities will eat me alive”I need a cuddle or something, it’s nicht so gut.And I am deciding on whether going in to do textiles all day tomorrow on the first day of the holidays would be a good thing, since I have 19 days to make a dress and evaluate it.I love my girlfriend. I love how she tries, no matter how she’s feeling, to deal with me. She’ll hate that I say the word ‘deal’ as she thinks that she doesn’t have to ‘cope’ with me, as she loves me and that’s what she’s there to do - but it’s not fair on her. But she does make me happier. I just wish I did the same for her. Uh. Well, I’m going to change the song now, eat some noodles and whine about my life to some one else. Love x
Monday, 29 March 2010
Monday.
When I woke up, I was happy. It was dark because the clocks went forward and last night I had the cutest conversations with D and some lovely chats with Sam.
I was looking forward to school, until I saw my face in the mirror - ergh, I hate my skin.
Then the whole day was awful, and the last part was by far the worst.
I'm going to not moan - I'm dealing with it :)
XO
I was looking forward to school, until I saw my face in the mirror - ergh, I hate my skin.
Then the whole day was awful, and the last part was by far the worst.
I'm going to not moan - I'm dealing with it :)
XO
Saturday, 27 March 2010
Uh, Tonight - Yes PLEASE.
Party tonight, lovers.
I don't know if I'm going to be able to stay awake though, as I slept at Dee's last night, but didn't actually fall asleep until 4am just gone.
Tonight, there's a party @ Josh's :) It's going to be good, at his mum's flat, with like 100 people, people that are actually ALRIGHT.
Lewis just said I could meet him at 7 tonight, because hardly any of us know where this flat is! It should be a funny night - as I am one of the lads and it's going to get 'messy' ahah, oh dear fuck :') I make myself laugh..
Plus I'm going to be sleeping at Dee's again tonight.
Oh and I found a good remix today by WTCC (WasteTimeChasingCars) on YouTube, as I subscribed to him and have not since regretted it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXo-6d2awOY&feature=sub
Have a good weekend, lovely lovely people XO
I don't know if I'm going to be able to stay awake though, as I slept at Dee's last night, but didn't actually fall asleep until 4am just gone.
Tonight, there's a party @ Josh's :) It's going to be good, at his mum's flat, with like 100 people, people that are actually ALRIGHT.
Lewis just said I could meet him at 7 tonight, because hardly any of us know where this flat is! It should be a funny night - as I am one of the lads and it's going to get 'messy' ahah, oh dear fuck :') I make myself laugh..
Plus I'm going to be sleeping at Dee's again tonight.
Oh and I found a good remix today by WTCC (WasteTimeChasingCars) on YouTube, as I subscribed to him and have not since regretted it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXo-6d2awOY&feature=sub
Have a good weekend, lovely lovely people XO
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
My Doctor's Trip.
Wow, who knew going to the Doctor's could give me so much to blog about!
Firstly, I would just like to say - I got my prescription ;)
Secondly, I want to tell you all about the people I shared a waiting area with.
So, here we go.
When my mother and I arrived at the surgery, there were about 5 different sets of people all waiting to see various doctor's, as you do. There was a couple next to us, who obviously had no problem with saying exactly what they thought in public. There was a giant of a man, who was sitting reading Reveal. There was a woman with lovely cared for hair, but looked like the "I fell off and seriously injured my fringe" woman. There was also a woman who kept getting up to change her seat and lastly, there was a woman in a wheelchair with a carer, but the woman was blind and deaf and kept saying "I can't see" and "What's that noise". It was awful, because I felt so sorry for her. She didn't have a clue what was going on and to top it off, her carer looked like a cartoon hippo! She was a right monster and kept telling the elderly lady that she needed to sit and be quiet. I just kept looking at my mum as if to say "What a bitch!" and my mum would roll her eyes.
I was getting impatient when everyone was seeing their Doctor's, but I was still in the same seat, feeling like shit. Later on, another couple came in after those 5 had gone and the woman's voice was all husky and lovely and her husband made me think of him sitting in the middle of a lake, fishing 'till his heart was content. So cute!
It turns out, I was half an hour early, but still sat there for 50 minutes! And then my appointment only lasted 5 minutes at the maximum, no word of a lie.
Now I'm sitting at my computer, my mum has gone back to work, I'm home alone, with my PJ's on, drinking tea with a hat on. I think I may go take a rest now - what a hectic morning ;) XO
Firstly, I would just like to say - I got my prescription ;)
Secondly, I want to tell you all about the people I shared a waiting area with.
So, here we go.
When my mother and I arrived at the surgery, there were about 5 different sets of people all waiting to see various doctor's, as you do. There was a couple next to us, who obviously had no problem with saying exactly what they thought in public. There was a giant of a man, who was sitting reading Reveal. There was a woman with lovely cared for hair, but looked like the "I fell off and seriously injured my fringe" woman. There was also a woman who kept getting up to change her seat and lastly, there was a woman in a wheelchair with a carer, but the woman was blind and deaf and kept saying "I can't see" and "What's that noise". It was awful, because I felt so sorry for her. She didn't have a clue what was going on and to top it off, her carer looked like a cartoon hippo! She was a right monster and kept telling the elderly lady that she needed to sit and be quiet. I just kept looking at my mum as if to say "What a bitch!" and my mum would roll her eyes.
I was getting impatient when everyone was seeing their Doctor's, but I was still in the same seat, feeling like shit. Later on, another couple came in after those 5 had gone and the woman's voice was all husky and lovely and her husband made me think of him sitting in the middle of a lake, fishing 'till his heart was content. So cute!
It turns out, I was half an hour early, but still sat there for 50 minutes! And then my appointment only lasted 5 minutes at the maximum, no word of a lie.
Now I'm sitting at my computer, my mum has gone back to work, I'm home alone, with my PJ's on, drinking tea with a hat on. I think I may go take a rest now - what a hectic morning ;) XO
I don't like being ill.
I'm not at school today as I was in a right state last night, because I felt so shit.
It came out of nowhere. I was happy all day, well as happy as I can deal with - then I went to art after school and suddenly it hit me. My head went weird, I felt sick and I just needed to go home.
After a 20 minute wait for my mum to come and pick me up, I had to wait in the car park of Iceland, fun! But at least she brought me food with her. When I got home, I just got into bed.
I haven't felt that awful - like, I just couldn't cope anymore - in a very long time.
I cried so much, it was ridiculous and it took everything out of me.
So today, waking up - I just got a shower, felt even worse and asked mum if I could just get back into bed. The worst part of it all today, on top of feeling like this, I have to go to the Doctor's anyway to ask to be put on the pill. Aha, it's funny because my brother was like "But she's a lesbian! She won't get pregnant!" I found it hilarious anyway. But the reason I am being asked to be put on it is to regulate me, hopefully for exams and it won't stress me out knowing it's coming. Anyway, that's lovely! But oh so true.
I'm going to go and lay down now. I love you all xo
It came out of nowhere. I was happy all day, well as happy as I can deal with - then I went to art after school and suddenly it hit me. My head went weird, I felt sick and I just needed to go home.
After a 20 minute wait for my mum to come and pick me up, I had to wait in the car park of Iceland, fun! But at least she brought me food with her. When I got home, I just got into bed.
I haven't felt that awful - like, I just couldn't cope anymore - in a very long time.
I cried so much, it was ridiculous and it took everything out of me.
So today, waking up - I just got a shower, felt even worse and asked mum if I could just get back into bed. The worst part of it all today, on top of feeling like this, I have to go to the Doctor's anyway to ask to be put on the pill. Aha, it's funny because my brother was like "But she's a lesbian! She won't get pregnant!" I found it hilarious anyway. But the reason I am being asked to be put on it is to regulate me, hopefully for exams and it won't stress me out knowing it's coming. Anyway, that's lovely! But oh so true.
I'm going to go and lay down now. I love you all xo
Monday, 22 March 2010
I Love You Phillip Morris,
Best film I have seen in a while. So sweet, so beautiful, so weird and wonderful, and best of all it made me laugh and cry. Jim Carrey and Ewan McGregor are just stunning.
Also, I got to catch up with Hayley which was utterly lovely :))! I love and miss her.
Goodnight XO
Also, I got to catch up with Hayley which was utterly lovely :))! I love and miss her.
Goodnight XO
I was also tagged in this photo on Facebook tonight too from the other day when we were sat on the field at lunchtime in the sun. I LOVE DEVON.
Ohai Monday. Oh that rhymed!
I can't believe it's Monday again already!
And I'm sure I say this every Monday - But seriously, I have to do a controlled piece of German coursework today, and I am in no way prepared for it.
Save me? I will love you forever, trust me.
But you should wish me luck <3
And I'm sure I say this every Monday - But seriously, I have to do a controlled piece of German coursework today, and I am in no way prepared for it.
Save me? I will love you forever, trust me.
But you should wish me luck <3
Anyway, the only good thing about today is that I get to see my girl.
Have a good day xo
Have a good day xo
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